Huntsman

It was surreal driving into Huntman today with mom.  I honestly don't know how I felt about it.  I relived many of the moments with Stephanie from some of the visits but more than anything I relived parts of the last visit.

When we went in that morning we knew Dad wasn't going to last very long.  I spoke with my brother mid day to check on him and let him know that our appointment was going long and I wasn't sure if and when I would make it.  I also share with him (he is the only one I share it with) that they said she didn't have much longer.  I had that outside walking between some pillars on the side of the building. I could almost picture me walking between them as I looked that direction.

I really felt we had months.....not days.

It was also strange to sit in the room with Mom  and sister.  The rooms all look alike so it help memories.

Our news was good today about my mom.  They were never that positive about Stephanie but I was that positive so sometimes it is hard to be positive and not start thinking of the reality that we had.