Saturday

Saturday morning I had to be at BYU at 7 a.m. to pick L up from EFY.  He had been gone for a week. I knew he was having a great time and the time flew by but I still missed him,  I arrived at 7 like they told me but he was busy saying "goodbye"to all of his new friends until 7:30.  I like the fact that he gets so attached to people and makes new friends so easily.

As we were walking to the car I said, "I missed you but I am glad you had a good time."  His response was, "I missed you too."  He said it kind of quiet like he didn't want anyone to hear but I knew that he missed me.

Our family has a strong bond.  We have gone through something that no family should have to go through and as difficult as it is and as much as we would like to have Stephanie back it has created a bond that is priceless.  The only thing I would trade this bond for is to have Stephanie back but since that isn't an option I am so grateful for the bond and the love we share.

When I got back home I started watching videos about Camp Kesem.  The kids are going to Camp Kesem next week.  It is a summer camp for kids who have lost a parent to cancer or a parent is going through cancer.

The videos were very touching and honestly, I was feeling a little weepy so a few tears did spill over. I can't even imagine how difficult it would be for a child to lose a parent.

One of the things that many of the videos spoke about was how the kids needed to know it was okay to be happy and to laugh.  I have made so many mistakes but that is one thing I feel good about is that we all laugh and have fun!

Just doing our best to fulfil the promise I make to Stephanie that we would laugh and play and have fun!